For my first blog post to kick off my return to the internet world, I want to talk about something I think all of you can relate to: adulthood.
When I was 16, I thought that life would be so much better in my twenties. At the time, I thought about how much easier adulthood would be– easier than high school was, I guess.
I thought that, somehow, everything would just fall into place, and well, it didn’t. For those of you who have been here a while, I’ll spare you the salacious details that would otherwise take a whole other post (which I plan to write and post by Monday afternoon). But so far, nothing has gone how 16-year-old me expected it would.
Don’t get me wrong, I get that’s life. Nothing goes as planned. Ever. At least not for me.
This brings me to 25. I am a year out of college. I have a job I love. I am writing more for myself than for academics (which honestly fills me with more joy than I can begin to express), and I am a dog mom to a two-year-old and a five-month-old. Yeah, I’m happy.
But this year (by the way, who decided it was okay to only have three months left?!), while void of any super significant accomplishments (I haven’t published a book- yet- or gotten married or had kids), taught me that sometimes changes aren’t external, and sometimes life doesn’t give us changes that are tangible.
Sometimes we grow on the inside. We lose unproductive habits. We grow apart from the friends that we thought were forever, and we move forward to the next phase of life a little more… lonely. They say your 20’s are your ‘selfish’ years and the years that test you the most. And I can honestly attest to that.
While I haven’t become a NYT best-selling author or a big time editor at a publishing company (yet!), I have grown so much mentally and emotionally in the last five years, and while the world around me has become less populated with the people I thought would be there forever, I’ve found a certain calmness and serenity when I’m alone.
25 is a lonely number, yes, but it’s also been incredibly… liberating. So this blog is my way of exploring my liberation, expanding my growth, eating good food, finding new ways to extend my fashion sense beyond leggings and Selena tees, and continuing to practice self love and acceptance.
I hope you’ll stick around!